My Life, Updating Again

The second half of the year 2019 is closing in, which means another check-in.

Two major life developments have occurred:

I quit my part-time job because 1) (the obvious reason) minimum wage cannot compensate the amount of physical and emotional labor I had to endure, 2) (a noble reason) I need to be more present at home so I can take care of my aging parents in their daily routines, and 3) (a personal reason connected to years of Inner work) I felt that I was compromising with my spiritual and emotional well-being for the sake of incurring (minimal) income, but I was subconsciously perpetuating the culture of consumerism and capitalism, which goes against my beliefs. It kind of sucks to not earn money anymore, but I do not regret my decision to leave. There are and will be other jobs that best suit what I am looking for. Which leads me to the next development…

I applied for graduate studies in a master’s program, after waiting four years to do so. As I cannot disclose many details about it now, I can only say that this program was something I have been waiting for, that will allow me to utilize all of my undergraduate studies in different disciplines, and it is housed in an institution that I hold in high regard for my academic endeavors. I intended to wait until next year to start, but after some positive encouragement from people I admire, I decided to apply for this fall. (And in typical fashion, I did so under intense time pressure. At least I am satisfied with what I put together because it helped me to see my goals in full view.)

Currently I am focusing on my writing. There is A LOT of work to be done, but I am happy to be full of the narrative vigor that will allow me to manifest my thoughts into prose. I am also reading more books, in preparation forĀ getlitfilam, which I am hoping to launch THIS SUMMER. I am working on the website design, the essays/reviews for publication, and the social media hype.

I will post more on this blog. The next post will be a deeper reflection on Raised Pinay. Prepare your tissues for the cries.

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{On the 26 now}

{{Better late than never to make a new post for the new year!}}

I celebrated my birthday, eleven days ago, and felt an internal cosmic shift (if that makes sense)! This new revolution in my life will be about “going for it”–reaching Thirty sooner than I thought, so it is about time I step up my Grown Woman(TM) game!

Updates since my last post:

  • Got employed at a specialty gifts store (my first job, and in retail). Survived the Christmas holiday shopping and the Valentine’s Day rush! Next up: Easter and Mother’s Day!! But I like it so far because of the plushies, candy, and compliments by customers like, “This is such a beautiful store!” and “I want to live here!” (because same).
  • Completed my training in voice acting! I began some time in November and recorded a demo last month, to use for potential gigs! I never thought that I would pursue this profession, but I would like it to be something that can help me to break away from the seriousness of the Real World and of Academia… Hoping to go further in this path!
  • Moved up to Level 2 of Japanese language courses! It is taking a while to refresh my memory on grammar rules, vocabulary, and writing… and I am also learning katakana!
  • Planning to continue driving lessons, after I failed my first road test… By the spring, I should be more confident and less afraid of taking the wheel. I aim to get licensed in time for the summer!

Currently, I am preparing to apply for graduate school. There is a new program that has launched at my target school, which perfectly combines the disciplines of my undergraduate studies. I will be attending their open house in a few weeks, so I am excited about that. I am keeping track of my progress, in making sure that I meet the deadline and hoping to get an answer by next year!

In terms of personal matters, I find myself worrying less about what others think or say about my life. I am more focused on bettering myself, my lifestyle, and my future course. I have found a supportive network that is giving me encouragement, advice, and praise for the work that I am doing. I am saving up funds for future investments and being more frugal yet thoughtful with money.

Oddly enough, I am learning to love books and reading again. That is, I am taking time out of my day, no matter how tired I am, to spend time with a story and enjoy the narrative. As much as I tend to see reading as part of my work as a Writer, I need to give myself a break and learn to read as a Reader. Even that will help me improve in my writing and my approach to literature.

I have gotten so busy with work, class, and home life that I find myself unable to write sometimes. Because I feel too tired to recall the day’s events, I tend to forget or blank out… so that is something that needs to change.

Also, I have a growing sweet tooth, which is not great, for someone without dental insurance…

{{hai}}

My Life, As of Now

{Most likely my last blog post for the year}

I find myself going online less often than in previous years. With the exception of looking up directions on my smartphone while traveling in the city and information on things that suddenly cross my mind and need to satisfy my short-lived curiosity, I barely talk about my life on social media. I do try to update, once in a while, to show that I am still around, for those who actually want to keep up with me through these means… but the past few months have caused me to rescind personal details from public view.

Either I am going further into adulthood by keeping busy with In Real Life matters, or I no longer have interest in participating in this aspect of Life where we are supposed to share snippets of our living as digital posts… but I do not want to start sounding like a a pseudo-intellectual commenting on the disconnect of “true intimacy” through technology. That’s a bunch of yadda to me.

Basically, I am here in my digital safe space to talk about what has been going on lately, in one long block of text–the best way I can communicate my thoughts and anecdotes.

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